Belief.

I believe because I fear.
I come to love what I fear.
I fear because I do not see clearly enough.
I do not see clearly enough because that is a choice I seem to have made.
My choices are not my own, I swear.
They are as bets that I place.
In the moment.
And later, perhaps, regret
but cannot disclaim.
Because I fear what I cannot see clearly enough.